Gaining

I hate when I feel like I’ve hit a wall.

On top of the world:

eating minuscule amounts and throwing most of it up.

Watching the pounds fall off and starting to feel confident again.

Then life drops in front of me like a heap of bricks

–

laughing in my face:

ha.ha.ha.

you have no time to work out.

ha.ha.ha.

you have to eat for the holidays.

ha.ha.ha.

you’re gonna pack it all back on.

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My Response:

Nooooooooo.

I can’t.

This holiday will not get me.

Cos if I can make it through Thanks Giving maintaining self control – I can make it to my all of my goals. This holiday’s a holiday I’d rather forget about anyway. Nothing good happens on Thanks Giving for me these past few years, so I’m taking a roadtrip and avoiding food.  Every stop I make, I’ll have “already eaten” before.

I can do this.

I will do this.

I must do this.