Thursday, June 30, 2016

Heartache Diet

Well, the heartache is doing exactly what I thought it would
and I've completely lost my appetite.
When I do choke some food down, I get throw it up almost immediately,
cause I feel constantly sick to my stomach.
I made a huge batch of detox tea
(Habanero Pepper, Ginger, Lemon, & Green Tea boiled & strained)
and I've been drinking that whenever I feel like I need to "eat" something.
Today, I've felt less sad - meaning I ate a 16oz of Cold Quinoa Salad
(Cooked Quinoa, Cucumber, Tomato, Chickpeas, & Kalamenta Olives)
and two 90calorie packages of dried fruit.
In the past week, I have run every day - at least 2 miles.
Tuesday evening I even walked 10 miles after ran the first 2.
One day the only thing I ate was a spinach smoothie & half an apple.
Another day I only had a cucumber and 2 hard boiled eggs.
I don't have a scale, so I don't know what I weigh, but I'm feeling tiny.

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Thursday, June 23, 2016

Broken Weightloss

My heart has been broken.
For the millionth time by the same person in less than a year.
He treats me like garbage- over&over -then sleeps with me.
I fall for his bullshit every time,
believing he's just having commitment issues,
but now I've learned that he just doesn't care about me.
He cares about all the things I do for him,
but he doesn't care about the actual me at all.
And in letting his abuse me, I've stopped caring about myself.
So it's time to buckle down on running & dieting.
I organized my vitamins,
did a bunch of meal prep,
and registered for a half marathon,
which I've created a training schedule for.
Since we live together- he'll have to see me
and every time he does, he'll regret losing me more&more.

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Guilt Thin

A new show premiered on Freeform.
Tuesday nights - following Pretty Little Liars.
Not only is it set in London with beautiful scenery,
the main character is a bone.
Daisy Head is stick-skinny and incredibly thinspirational.
Just in time and just what I need.

Tuesday, June 21, 2016


This is my old roommate.
For some reason, we had a dramatic move-out
and we don't talk anymore.
But I scrolled through her Instagram
and was very impressed by this photo.
Back muscles are key.
Yes, I want to be thin&bony,
but muscle definition is very impressive.

Monday, June 20, 2016

My Forever Goal

I started watching Ally McBeal again
(middle of season 2)
and I still just can't get over how small she is!
Calista Flockhart is my ultimate body goal
and her character is perfect.
I love love love this show so very much.
And even though I can't stand Georgia,
I envy her for getting to kiss Ally in s2e10.