Fucking Paranoia

Welp...

I got a little drunk last night at dinner

(two IPA's apparently are too much for me)

and decided to have
unprotected sex with the boyfriend.

Yeah...

I've been on birth control for almost 10 years

but that's never prevented my paranoia
from taking over

every time I've fucked anyone.

(well, besides the girls.)

So, when I realized what I'd done

and that this is my non-pill-period-week

I immediately started freaking myself out.

I've been throwing up my dinners and abusing laxitive

on&off for years

so I know the consistency&effectiveness

of my birth control is potentially fucked in general.

Thus...

I bought my first Plan B pill

(wow, that things expensive!)

and took it immediately after work.

Meaning...

I can't throw up tonight

which makes me feel miserable&enormous.

But at least I won't be preggo...

Yet another reason I'd like to lose my cycle altogether.