Lookin' Back

Feeling like a fatso on the beach.

Not a fun feeling.

Here's a snap from vacation...

it's odd

because I felt so skinny

on the beach that day,

but looking back at that picture

I don't look so thin.

I guess that just means

I have more work to do.

No matter how confident I feel

I can always better myself.

(I lost a follower... Sad All Day.)

Day 388

Breakfast:
Celery & Peanut Butter - 200cals
Lunch:
Spinach Salad w/ Chicken - 150cals
Snack:

Dinner:


Exercise:
Bike Ride - 150cals
Uphill Walk - 300cals

NET:

Fruit Freak

When I'm craving Cake&Cookies

I try to munch on sweet fruits instead.

It's not the same

- obviously -

but it's a pretty good substitute

to feed my sweet tooth.

My favorites are Apples&Pineapple

and

- though I don't know why avocado is on the list -

that's a major treat I love to enjoy.

Day 387

Breakfast:
Spinach Salad - 150cals
Lunch:
Falafal Wrap - 200cals
Snack:
Celery & Peanut Butter - 150cals
Dinner:
Nachos - 300cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 150cals
Squats - 100cals

NET: 550 

LawrenceThin

I'll admit, when Hunger Games came out
I was annoyed with Jennifer Lawrence.
I tend to dislike celebrities
that everyone obsesses over.
But, after Silver Linings Playbook, I loved her.
She's beautiful and a great actress.
I feel she's one of those people
who shifts in weight very easily, too.
(like me)
Sometimes she looks so bloated
then sometimes she looks so thin.
Either way, I think she's a stunning inspiration.

Day 386

Breakfast:
Spinach w/ Chicken - 100cals
Lunch:
Beef Naked Burrito - 200cals
Snack:
Chips & Cheese - 150cals
Dinner:
Chicken - 150cals

Exercise:
Bike Ride - 200cals
Uphill Walk - 300cals

NET: 100

Latin Beauty

I've always loved Latino culture

-South America was my area of focus in College-

and I can honestly wish I could be confident

in a curvy body

like the women in these wonderwall.latino photos.

I'm not, though.

I prefer a bony body

...even though I still don't have it back.

It is great to see beautiful women

embracing themselves

even if their bodies aren't what I'd like.

http://wonderwall.latino.msn.com/tv/
best-and-worst-celebrity-bikini-bods
-12275.gallery#!wallState=0__%2Ftv%2F
best-and-worst-celebrity-bikini-bods
-12275.gallery%3FphotoId%3D74116

Day 385

Breakfast:
Peanut Butter - 100cals
Lunch:
Salad w/ Croutons - 250cals
Snack:
Chips & Salsa - 100cals
Dinner:
Chicken - 100cals
Dessert:
Vegan Froyo - 100cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 150cals

NET: 500

Vacation Motivation (again)

I have NOT been a good girl lately.

I haven't been awful

but I've definitely been naughty.

I went on a camping trip

with some girlfriends last weekend

and brought some MaryJane with me.

I wanted to enjoy a tent on the beach

with a little mindlessness.

Unfortunately my girlfriends are munchers,

so I smoked&binged.

Irritating that I can't behave.

I have to start, though...

...and I can't just keep telling myself that.

I need to actually do it.

In exactly one month I'll be headed to LA

(for a week-long work conference)

and I want to look amazing.

This is real.

Under 120lbs by June 24th.
...I was gunna make eggless cookie dough
to snack on tonight
But I didn't have brown sugar,
so I'll take it as a sign to STOP.

Day 384

Breakfast:
Peanut Butter - 100cals
Lunch:
Black Bean Patty - 200cals
Onion Rings - 200cals
Snack:
Cucumber w/ Italian - 50cals
Dinner:
Spinach Salad - 200cals
Dessert:
Skittles - 50cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stair - 150cals
Bike Ride - 200cals

NET: 450

Happy Differences

This is the background on my work computer.
I put the list on this picture I GoogleImaged
to inspire be to
a) run
b) be happy.
Most of these goals are pretty hard for me.
I'm notorious for envying the happiness of others
and overthinking&overreacting to most things.
But, I'm trying.
I want to be happy.
I want to love myself inside&out.

http://successify.net/2012/10/31/22
-things-happy-people-do-differently/

Day 379

Breakfast:
Grapefruit - 50cals
Lunch:
Vegan Burger (not bun) - 200cals
Chickpea Salad - 50cals
Snack:
Hard-boiled Eggs w Crackers - 100cals
Dinner:
Baked Potato w/ BBQ Sauce - 150cals
Dessert:
Cookie Dough - 100cals

Exercise:
Run w/ Stairs - 200cals
Incline Walk - 300cals

NET: 150

SeaCreatureSkinny

Silly post some [probably fat] person shared on facebook:

http://idealistrevolution.blogspot.com

/2013/03/
body-image-parable-goes-viral-mermaid.html

Of course the women wanted to "be a whale."

When women feel pressured to lose,

they justify their gain.

I don't want to be a mermaid or a whale.

I want to be a thin&beautiful woman.

As for being fat&happy or skinny&sad...

I believe that's absolute bullshit.

I plan to be tiny&terrific

with a lovely life to match.

Day 378

Breakfast:
Grapefruit - 50cals
Lunch:
Turkey Unwich - 200cals
Snack:
Peanut Butter - 200cals
Dinner:
Cheese & Crackers - 150cals
Dessert:
Peanut Butter Cookie - 100cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 150cals

NET: 550

VampiressThin

Oh, Vampire Diaries.
I haven't watched in a while
- I'm sure the season finale came&went -
so I should probably catch up
and get my hot vampire fix.
Elena - Nina Dobrev - is beautiful&tiny.
She's gotten smaller&smaller
as the show has progressed, too.
I need to get into her mindset.

...129lbs this morning.

Hopefully, I'll be back down in a week.

Day 371

Breakfast:
Peanut Butter - 200cals
Lunch:
Salad w/ Olive Oil - 150cals
Dinner:
Ademame - 80cals
Chicken Breast - 150cals

Exercise:
Uphill Walk - 300cals

NET: 200

Thin Goals

I thought I was a MunchMonster last week

but this weekend was even worse.

The boyfriend had a bunch of buddies in town

and we ate&played&drank all weekend.

 I really really really need to get back on track.

I feel like without the motivation of vacation
(the thought of my body in a bikini)

I can't convince myself to behave

and before I know it

I'll have packed on 10lbs

and hate myself.

It's sad that I need a constant goal

to keep thin-thoughts in my mind.

I used to be so dedicated.

Ugh.

So frustrated.

Look at these fat thighs...

these disgusting&gigantic legs.

I have so much work to do.

Day 370

Breakfast:
Grapefruit - 30cals
Lunch:
Spinach w/ Olive Oil - 100cals
Snack:
Peppers & Cucumber - 50cals
Dinner:
Chicken Breast - 80cals
Pizza Roll - 150cals
Dessert:
Vanilla Almond Cupcake - 100cals

Exercise:
Uphill Run - 350cals

NET: 160

OutOnTheTown

Went to a concert tonight
then to the bar with some girlfriends.
Ripped-Up Leggings
Floral Bodycon Mini
Cardi - Belt - Heels
Felt pretty sexy
struttin' down the street
all tan&tipsy.
Good times.

Day 369

Brunch:
Salad w/ Egg - 200cals
Dinner:
Spicy Tuna Roll - 150cals
Drinks:
Vodka - 80cals
Tequila - 50cals
Beer - 150cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 300cals

NET: 330

QuinnThin

It's been a long time
since I watched One Tree Hill,
but I still remember how tiny Quinn was
in her bikini before her exotic photoshoot trip.
She got tinier&tinier as the show went on.
I need to get tinier&tinier.

By the way - I finally posted about vacation...

Intake&Results.

Scroll down and take a gander.

Day 368

Breakfast:
Scrambled Eggs w/ Toast - 200cals
Lunch:
Salad - 150cals
Snack:
Carrots - 100cals
Strawberry Cheesecake - 150cals
Dinner:
Nachos - 200cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 150cals

NET: 650

Lard Cobbler

We all know I live the Big Bang Theory
- especially watching Penny yo-yo her weight -
and the other night's re-run cracked me up.
Sheldon lost his job
and went into a melt-down
so his mom came to town
to get him back together.
While she was there,
she baked all his favorite meals
- one of which was peach cobbler -
to coax him out of his room.
She's from Texas
and apparently cooks with lots
of unhealthy ingredients,
so the cobber was
"baked with lard."
Penny(andherfatarms) didn't like that.

Most "treats" really aren't worth it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egCJwXOT890

Damn, though...
when Penny looks good
she looks good.

Day 367

Breakfast:
Grapefruit - 80cals
Snack:
Chips & Guac - 150cals
Lunch:
Greek Salad - 200cals
Dinner:
Nachos - 200cals

Exercise:
Bike Ride - 200cals

NET: 430

Bosworth Thin

Oh, Kate Bosworth.

She looks like an alien...

but damn!

I long to look so tiny.

I need to get my shit together

and stop making excuses

instead of just becoming so tiny myself.

Get it together!

RIGHT NOW.

Day 366

Breakfast:
Grapefruit - 50cals
Lunch:
Salad w/ Apple & Walnut - 200cals
Dinner:
Low-fat Fettuccine Alfredo - 200cals
Snack:
Chips & Guac - 100cals

Exercise:
Bike Ride - 200cals

NET: 350

VacationThin

I came back from vacation...

4lbs lighter than when I left.

Impressive, I think.

(Though now I'm PMSing&craving all things naughty.)

I may not have done a ton of exercising,

but I also didn't do a ton of munching,

so that was good.

And I had a great amount of addy&lax

to keep me on track

when my fellow-vacationers were fattening up.

Days 356-365

9 Days of Food:

Dots - 80cals
Tootsies - 80cals
Sour Patch Kids - 80cals
French toast - 100cals
Taco Salad (x2) - 600cals
Pickles - 50cals
Mixed Drinks - 1000cals
Beer - 2000cals
Salad w/ Egg - 200cals
Sunchips - 100cals
Cheese Pizza - 250cals
Egg Pammich - 250cals
Black Bean Patty - 250cals
Pasta Salad - 80cals
Nachos (x3) - 600cals
Icecream (x2) - 300cals
Hard Boiled Eggs - 300cals
Bean Burger w/ Fries - 500cals
Pineapple Float - 200cals
Cherries - 50cals
Pizza - 600cals
Apple - 50cals
Fudge - 150cals
Onion Rings - 80cals
HoneyMustard Pretzels - 200cals

Exercise:

Walk (20miles) - 2000
Swim - 500
Stairs - 300
Sex - 500

9 DAY NET: 4840