Random Outfits

Super old outfit photos from an unpublished draft in 2014...

PostSecret Facts

My butt, please?

Snooki Workouts

I know she's old news

but she's still adorable.

Before & After

She's so cute.

I really wish I had a trainer

to light a fire under my fat butt.

Gotta Keep It Up

Dressed For Thin

So much thin in one picture!

Me In March

Feeling Fat!

How did I miss this, Facebook!?

I would have used it all the time!

Too funny.

Up Up Up

Lately I need lots of caffeine.

Muffin Maker

I love to make muffins.

Whenever I have browning bananas laying around

I immediately decide to make muffins.

Often, though, I don't even eat them.

I share them with my roommates or coworkers...

and somehow get out of eating them myself.

It's really just the baking part I love.

Kaitlyn's Insta

Kaitlyn wasn't my favorite on this past season of the Bachelor,

but I started following her on Instagram

and she's definitely thinsiraptional.

I'm still #TeamBritt, though.

Kaitlyn is one of those girls who knows she's tiny

and tries to play off the "I'm so cute" card effortlessly.

Running Rat

February & March

Spent 2 months as a hotel gym rat...

...wishing I could see more results.

I was half marathon training almost every night

even when I spent my days in classes & studying.

I must have simply been eating too much of that cafeteria food

cause even with 800calorie-burning workouts

I didn't seem any smaller.

October & November & December

Now I spend at least 3 nights a week at a hotel...

...and I think I finally may be seeing results.

But it's hard to keep a consistent workout schedule.

Sometimes it's late at night or early in the morning

and sometimes I'm simply exhausted after a long day

but I told myself I have to at least do 30mins of cardio.

For a couple of months now,

I've stuck with my plan well.

Sometimes I feel guilty that 30mins seems like so little,

but it's better than nothing

and I figure -after being on my feet all day- I don't need a ton.

I can tell my thighs&butt are tightening up again, too. 

London Thin

On a day off I had a BravoTV marathon and got hooked on Ladies of London.

Mostly, I loved the scenery and, quite honestly, hated the fashion.

My favorite ones are Marissa and Annabelle.

(Blonde in the yellow & Brunette with the bangs)

They're both thin&beautiful and less dramatic&cliquie than the others.

a mess

It's been a while.

I know.

Just enough time for me to make a royal mess of my life.

The BF&I were pretty much done in July.

Of course, before I could even accept the change: I met someone.

At first I tried to avoid it.

...brush it off & neglect my desire to be near him.

But then I moved in with him.

Cause I'm an absolute idiot.

And the magical moments seeped into my brain.

He'd come home and rush up the stairs to hug me

...just to hug me cause he needed to.

He'd cook for me and snuggle me and smile at me 24/7.

We chose not to discuss our past relationships.

We tried to keep things casual

...but the emotions were running high.

And at some point, I said too much.

I shared too much.

I got too vulnerable.

And while he was discussing his desires to pack on some muscle

I was letting my ED issues show through,

which was not a topic he understood too well.

Worry & critiquing.

Telling me to be "healthy" and not to "starve."

So I've realized I need an outlet.

As I've started purging again and I AM trying to starve most days

I need somewhere to speak

so I don't let anything slip to him.

If he even wants me anymore, that is.

I posted a photo of my ex and I on FB while I was tipsy

and now he's asked for some days to think

until we can talk in person.

Goodness.

I don't want to lose him.

And I want to lose 15lbs.

One positive point is that the stress of this silence ruins my appetite.

I had a bunch of drafts to publish back in March.
I'll begin by getting those out once per day
when I don't have anything else to get off my chest.

KEEP GOING

I'm the maid-of-honor in my best friend's wedding

and she's started getting discouraged with her bridal diet.

In the first 2 weeks, she dropped 7lbs

(she doesn't have much to lose in the first place)

and now she's at a stand-still.

Her frustration reminded me of this saying:



Thin Ex

My brother's gold-digging ex-girlfriend recently got engaged.

Based on her body language, she looks really into him.

(not.)

When she dated my brother, she always drove me crazy.

She'd order huge portions then just pick at it without eating any.

Then she'd go on&on about how she had such a big appetite

and how she always ate so much.

I wanted to scream: no you don't! who do you think you're fooling!?



Love Tove Lo

I bought Tove Lo's Queen of the Clouds album

and fell completely in love with her.

I only wanted a couple of the songs initially,

but it was cheaper to buy the whole thing

and I'm so glad I did.

The album is split into 3 parts:

The Sex-The Love-The Pain

which is an excellent set-up and covers all emotional bases.

I love her lyrics - they're very raw&real

and she's a very beautiful&fit girl.

 

"Moments"

I grew up with a lot of green
Nice things 'round me
I was safe, I was fine

Grew up with a lot of dreams
Plans who to be
None of them know were mine

I love freaks, I don't care if you're a wild one
I love freaks, I don't care if you're a wild one
And me

I, I'm not the prettiest you've ever seen
But I have my moments, I have my moments
Not the flawless one, I've never been
But I have my moments, I have my moments
I can get a little drunk, I get into all the don'ts
But on good days I am charming as fuck
I can get a little drunk, I get into all the don'ts
But on good days I am charming as fuck

I can be the perfect one
But I'll make you come
And I'm locked in your mind

You can say I don't belong
That I'm so wrong
I can tell, tell you lie

I love freaks, I don't care if you're a wild one
I love freaks, I don't care if you're a wild one
And

I, I'm not the prettiest you've ever seen
But I have my moments, I have my moments
Not the flawless one, I've never been
But I have my moments, I have my moments
I can get a little drunk, I get into all the don'ts
But on good days I am charming as fuck
I can get a little drunk, I get into all the don'ts
But on good days I am charming as fuck

Rough around the edges, memories and baggage
You know me
Never play the safe card, When I go I go hard
And now you know

I, I'm not the prettiest you've ever seen
But I have my moments, I have my moments
Not the flawless one, I've never been
But I have my moments, I have my moments
I can get a little drunk, I get into all the don'ts
But on good days I am charming as fuck
I can get a little drunk, I get into all the don'ts
But on good days I am charming as fuck.

Suki Cutie

So, Bradley Cooper's girlfriend Suki Waterhouse will appear in Insurgent.

She's an English model&actress and the daughter of a plastic surgeon.

She's beautiful&thin.

(but, surprisingly not too thin like many models...)

And they seem super cute together.

I'm excited to see her play Marlene, a character I grew to like in the series.

http://www.eonline.com/news/501369/suki-waterhouse-sits-in-bradley-cooper-s-lap-at-the-sag-awards-see-the-pics
http://www.usmagazine.com/celebrity-news/news/suki-waterhouse-calls-talking-about-boyfriend-bradley-cooper-boring-wants-to-have-kids-in-not-too-long-2013212



Week Excitement

Insurgent will be out in ONE WEEK.

In honor of my excitement, here's a shot of Zoë Kravitz being tiny.

Pineapple Goodness

I'm obsessed with dried pineapple...

I should probably pick the kind that's dried without sugar,

but the sweet deliciousness is so wonderful!

I need to stop.

#EffYourBeautyStandards

I'm sorry, but no.



http://www.msn.com/en-us/lifestyle/fashion/plus-size-model-behind-supernumbereffyourbeautystandards-is-helping-all-women-feel-sexy/ss-AA8Db3H?ocid=DELLDHP#image=1

Get it, Michelle

If I'm super hot like Michelle Rodriguez at age 36

I'll prolly wanna bang some hot models&actors, too!

Cara Delevingne AND Zac Efron

...both in one year...

yes, please.

http://laredosun.us/?p=9190

Post-pregnancy Perfection

I stumbled upon this article from January

and was shocked by the comments people left on this poor girl's photo.

Pure jealousy - that's for sure.

But still, its so sad to me that our society worships tiny actresses&models

yet hates on them at the same time...

it's a lose-lose.

You're either tiny&perfect yet judged for being "too tiny"

or your fat&unhealthy yet judged for not being "tiny enough."

Why does anyone care what this mother's body looks like?

I know that I post a lot about actresses&musicians

and comment mostly on their appearances

(I mean, come on, you all know this is basically a thinspo blog...)

but I also don't really care if people want to be fatORskinny

as long as they're happy&healthy.

My goodness, the audacity of people to post negative comments

on a woman's progress post-birth is disgusting.

Also, I'd like to point out that her caption mentioned

how hard she's been working out to get this body back...

so it's not like she's even promoting an unhealthy lifestyle!

http://www.takepart.com/article/2015/01/26/mom-gets-shamed-instagram-bikini-selfie?cmpid=tp-fb

Glee Thin

So I got sucked into a youtube hole

and started watching videos of Leah Michelle talking about Cory Monteith

and I ran across the Teen Choice Award tribute.

Yes, the speech was beautiful and his death was tragic,

but I was more intrigued by the little, black outfit that girl is wearing.

(sidenote: I've never watched Glee)

Obviously, she looks great, but I was shocked by how much is exposed...

I mean at least wear a high-waist&crop-top?

I guess if I had that body, I'd flaunt it, too.



Timehop Reminder

This photo came up on my Timehop

and I was so shocked by how small I used to be...

I mean, sure, I was younger

...but I wasn't a child...

so the childish frame&legs&arms just threw me off.

I don't even remember looking that way.

I was a much better version of myself 6 years ago.

I really need to get my shit together.

InstaFitness

This is one of my friends from college.

She's very into herself.

I personally would never post pictures like this,

but I don't mind seeing them,

cause they're definitely thinspirational.

 

InstaBenso

Ashley Benson is killin' it lately.

So thin & beautiful.

Lana Love