Skinny Miley

Days 384-386

Day 384
Breakfast:
Sausage w/ Cheese - 200cals
Lunch:
Chili w/ Frittos - 300cals
Dinner:
Pistacios - 50cals

Exercise:
Moving Furniture - 300cals

Day 385
Breakfast:
Scrambled Eggs w/ Hashbrowns - 300cals
Lunch:
Black Bean Soup w/ Baguette - 300cals
Dinner:
Cheese Ravioli - 300cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 200cals

Day 386
Breakfast:
Yogert - 100cals
Lunch:
Fat Free Cottage Cheese - 300cals
Dinner:
Deep Dish Pizza - 300cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 150cals

NET: 1500

Fat Fashion Dont's

If you have no defined waist

you should never rock the crop top

even in a high-waisted shirt to hide your belly.

And if you don't have awesome thighs

you shouldn't wear the shortest dress ever.

Day 383

Lunch:

Chili w/ Fritos - 300cals

Dinner:

Rueben - 500cals

Dessert:

Chocolates - 300cals

Exercise:

Walk w/ Stairs - 200cals

NET: 900

Garter&Legs

Days 380-382

Day 380
Lunch:
Chili w/ Fritos - 300cals
Dinner:
Pickle Roll-Ups - 200cals

Exercise:
3mi Run - 400cals

Day 381
Breakfast:
Cinnamon Roll - 200cals
Sausage Links - 200cals
Lunch:
Turkey, Corn, Potatoes, & Gravy - 500cals
Dinner:
Popcorn - 200cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 200cals

Day 382
Lunch:
Summer Sausage w/ Cheese - 300cals
Dinner:
Potato Soup - 200cals

Exercise:
3mi Runs - 400cals
Abs & Arms - 100cals

NET: 1100

Facebookness

Days 377-379

Day 377
Lunch:
Mashed Potatoes, Corn, & Gravy - 300cals
Roast Beef - 150cals
Dinner:
Chili w/ Fritos - 300cals

Exercise:
3mi Run - 400cals

Day 378
Lunch:
Cottage Cheese - 200cals
Dinner:
Spaghetti w/ Meatballs - 300cals
Dessert:
Peanut Butter Pie - 100cals
Eggnog w/ Brandy - 300cals

Exercise:
3mi Run - 400cals
Abs & Arms - 200cals

Day 379
Breakfast:
Cottage Cheese - 200cals
Lunch:
Popcorn - 150cals
Dinner:
Chili w/ Fritos - 300cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 200cals

NET: 1100

CelebrityThin

http://www.nydailynews.com
/entertainment/gossip/hunger-games-skinny-stars-hungry-gallery-1.1049008

Day 376

Breakfast:
Chocolates - 200cals
Lunch:
Chips & Salsa - 200cals
Dinner:
Bacon Cheese Burger - 300cals
Fries - 150cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 200cals

NET: 650

Things To Do

Sometimes you just need to distract yourself.

I do it with wine a lot.

I've been trying to cut back

on that sugary-beverage-intake

but I still find myself distracting with wine

and the painting of nails

(though lately I've opted to get them done)

instead of stuffing my face when I get home.

Drink Wine

Paint Nails

Day 375

Breakfast:
Roasted Almonds - 150cals
Lunch:
Salad w/ Croutons - 200cals
Snack:
Chocolates - 200cals
Dinner:
Cheesy Rice - 200cals

NET: 750

Preggo Friend

One of my best girlfriends is pregnant.

She looks like a Barbie.

I'm sure she'll be an adorable preggo lady.

She was joking about her dissapointment

in discovering she only needed to eat

300extra calories for the baby.

"I wanted to eat for two, damnit!"

Cracked me up.

I'm sure she'll never be "that girl"

that gets&stays super fat, though.

She works out & eats right

and she'll be one of "those moms"

who probably loses even more weight after.

Day 374

Breakfast:
Yogert w/ Orange - 150cals
Lunch:
Cottage Cheese w/ Pickles - 200cals
Dinner:
Pizza w/ Bacon - 200cals
Roasted Almonds - 200cals
Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 150cals
NET: 600

The Days.

I'm feeling very old lately.

very useless.

very underwhelmed.

I'm feeling like I've missed everything

...like I'm stuck.

I wish I was stoned.

I wish I fucked all the time.

I wish I worked out more.

I wish I read books.

.stretch my mind.

.control my body.

.dominat my world.

I was so motivated just weeks ago

and now I am just a slob.

.a bloated&lonely slob.

I need to find myself again.

I went through a Chips&Queso phase.
Last week I ate that 2 Days In a Row.
I know its not that naughty
and I know my intake isn't that high
but I haven't been working out enough
to allow myself to eat at all.
Guh. I suck.

Day 373

Breakfast:
Yogert w/ Orange - 150cals
Lunch:
Cottage Cheese w/ Pickles - 300cals
Snack:
Fruit Cake - 300cals
Dinner:


Exercise:


NET:

Garter Fun

The boyfriend&I went to a wedding last month

and the pictures are finally out.

I caught the bouquet and he the garter

so they called us on stage

and [in our drunkeness] we acted pretty silly.

I must admit:

I didn't look so bad.

I'd done a good job dieting for that dress

and my legs looked alright while

the boyfriend is exposed my crotch.

I definitely need to keep losing

but it's nice to see my progress on film.

Days 370-372

Day 170
Breakfast:
BBQ Chips - 200cals
Lunch:
Salad w/ Italian - 200cals
Dinner:
Pizza w/ Bacon - 300cals

Exercise:
Moving Furniture/Cleaning - 300cals

Day 171
Breakfast:
BBQ Chips - 200cals
Lunch:
Salad w/ Italian - 150cals
Dinner:
Pizza w/ Bacon - 500cals

Exercise:
Moving Furniture/Cleaning - 300cals

Day 172
Breakfast:
Hard Boiled Eggs - 100cals
Lunch:
Vegetable Soup - 200cals
Dinner:
Bagel w/ Cream Cheese - 300cals
Deli Meat - 150cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 150cals

NET: 1550

PostSecret Thinspo

Day 368

Lunch:
Salad w/ Hard Boiled Eggs - 200cals
Snack:
Chips & Queso - 750cals
Dinner:
Swordfish - 200cals
Drinks:
Wine - 150cals

Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 200cals

NET: 1100

Magazine Thin

I want people to say:

"She's gone too far."

and discribe me as "too skinny."

Instead, I seem to have been too thin

but now I'm on the Mary-Kate bloat plan.

Shit.

Day 367

Lunch:
Lemon Rice Soup - 200cals
Snack:
Hersey Kisses - 150cals
Dinner:
Cheddar Broccoli Soup - 150cals
Bagel w/ Light Cream Cheese - 200cals

Exercise:
Cycling - 200cals

NET: 500

Thin Thighs

 My thighs have never been thin

but occasionally they'll look small.

The winter of 2009 [see photo above] they were little

and recently they shrink right after a cycling sess

but they've never been consistantly ittybitty.

I just bought the book:

"Thin Thighs in 30 Days"

I think it's an older book

but I remember wanting it years ago

so I went ahead and ordered it.

My plan is to really have a kick-ass January.

I know - I know

everyone has a New Years Resolution

but I'm gonna take mine very seriously

and I need an End of January Motivator.

Day 366

Lunch:
Salad w/ Hardboiled Egg - 250cals
Snack:
Dark Chocolate Kisses - 100cals
Dinner:
Chili Cheese Fries - 200cals
Greek Salad - 150cals
Exercise:
Walk w/ Stairs - 150cals

NET: 550

Angus&Julia - All Of Me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-hWSjjZ4hY

"All Of Me"

Angus & Julia Stone

Is there a cure for this pain
Maybe I should have something to eat
But food won't take this emptiness away
I'm hungry for you my love

Well I made it through another day
In my cold room
On scraps and pieces left behind
I survive on the memory of you

All Of me is all for you - You're all I see
All of me is all for you - You're all I need

Is there a remedy for waiting
For loves victorious return
Is there a remedy for hating
Every second that I'm without you

All of me is all for you - You're all I see
All of me is all for you - You're all I need

All this life is all for love
It's the only road I'll choose
And every street and avenue
Only one will lead me to you

All of me is all for you - You're all I see
All of me is all for you - You're all I need

One Love, One Love, One Love
One Love, One Love, One Love

Days 363-365

Day 363
Breakfast:
Bacon & Cheddar Omelette - 250cals
Lunch:
Boneless Wings - 200cals
BBQ Chips - 200cals
Snack:
No Bake Cookies - 150cals
Dinner:
Broccoli Soup - 100cals
Beer - 200cals

Exercise:
Moving Furniture - 100cals
Walk w/ Hills&Stairs - 200cals

Day 364
Lunch:
Bread Sticks - 300cals
Snack:
No Bake Cookies - 100cals
Dinner:
Burrito - 200cals

Exercise:
Cycling - 250cals

Day 365
Breakfast:
Frosted Brownie - 200cals Lunch:
Hard Boiled Eggs - 150cals
Dinner:
Pizza - 200cals
Exercise:
Cycling - 250cals

NET: 1450

AudrinaThin

So many people were commenting on this

saying they thought she looked gross untouched.

I like the way her rib&hip bones pop out, though.

She almost looks chunky in the magazine cover.

I'd rather be bone skinny & look it in pictures.

It's ironic that celebs work so hard to by tiny

then allow photoshop like this to dodge ridicule.

She's little - she probably tries to be that way...

it's sad that she wants to hide it for a magazine.

Day 362

Lunch:
Vegetable Soup - 150cals
Apple - 60cals
Dinner:
Cheese Bread - 200cals
Late-Night-Snack:
Wine - 100cals

Exercise:
Walk - 100cals

NET: 410

Petite Pants

Size 2 Petite Work Pants
- Ann Taylor no less -
a tiny-professional-person dresser.

Day 361

Breakfast:
Hard Boiled Eggwhites - 100cals
Lunch:
Broccoli w/ Cheese - 200cals
Snack:
Cucumber w/ Hummus - 100cals
Dinner:
Bacon Pizza - 200cals
Exercise:
Cycling - 200cals

NET: 400

Inspire Me

Days 359-360

Day 359
Breakfast:
Cottage Cheese - 200cals
Lunch:
Hard Boiled Eggwhites - 100cals
Pickles - 100cals
Snack:
Chips & Queso - 200cals
Dinner:
Salami - 200cals
Cookie Dough - 100cals

Exercise:
Cycling - 150cals

Day 360
Breakfast:
Carrots & Hummus - 300cals
Lunch:
Hard Boiled Eggwhites - 100cals
Pickles - 100cals
Dinner:
Salami - 200cals
Cookie Dough - 100cals

Exercise:
Cycling - 200cals

NET: 1350

Black&White Inspiration

I will be strong.

I will move on

from this hold fat&food have on me.

I will be happy and tiny again.

I won't eat.

I won't be fat.

I won't be a freak.

I won't be an alcoholic.

I will read all the time.

I don't need anyone's attention

but I will have it.

I'll never truly let anyone in.

I won't smoke cigs

I will smoke weed.

I am not a slut

but I will have sex.

Day 358

Lunch:
Salad w/ Hard Boiled Eggs - 300cals
Snack:
Steamed Broccoli - 100cals
Dinner:
Turkey Sausage - 300cals
Sloppy Joe - 200cals

Exercise:
Cycling - 250cals

NET: 650

Not Failing

I've been looking through old pictures lately

to gain inspiration

and rediscover myself.

I was my smallest from Fall 2008-Spring 2010.

When I think about those days

I don't think about how tiny I was

I think of all that I was going through.

My lover started cheating in Fall 2008.

We battled over&for our relationship for a year.

Then she killed herself.

And I starved through a blacked out depression

till Spring 2010.

Then I got fat.

Really really fat.

I moved away:

I stayed fat.

I moved back home:

I stayed fat.

I moved a couple more times:

I stayed fat.

I've always battled...

always yo-yo'd...

but basically for THREE & A HALF YEARS:

I've been fat.

I've said a million times that

I felt I'd "woken up"

and gotten my grasp back on myself

but I feel that now

I finally realize that I'd never been myself at all.

Myself was that girl who knew her emotions

who starved through them on her own

to deal with all that was happening.

Myself was that girl who discovered adderal

before that Thanksgiving vacation in 2008

and decided that emptiness was all she cared to feel.

And for the first time since the black out:

I feel like myself.

And myself is fragile&emotional.

Myself has gone through heartache&loss.

Myself will not be fat anymore.

It took me a while in 2008

to get down the my smallest recoded weight

but starting at Thanksgiving again

I will find my way back

down-down-down to tiny.

Days 354-357

Intake 354-356:

Turkey

Potatoes

Broccoli & Cheddar Casserole

Chips & Queso

McDonalds Breakfast

French Fries

Bean Burritos

Pizza

Chips

Beer

Intake 357:

Diet Coke

Coffee

Laxatives

Laxative Tea

Output:
Walk w/ Stairs & Hills

NET: FAT FAT FAT GAIN

Oh, Amazon.

...the things you find on Amazon.

Some people's reviews of items crack me up

and make me jealous

when they talk about how tiny they are.

I want to be able to say that I'm "very petite"

and proudly proclaim a 95lb weight.

Also, I really don't understand

why that model doesn't have a shirt on...

especially with those lovehandles.

So random.

Day 353

Breakfast:
Banana Nut Bread - 100cals
Lunch:
Celery & Hummus - 150cals
Chips & Queso - 300cals
Dinner:
Veggie Patty - 150cals
Exercise:


NET: 

White Tee

This was one of my favorite t-shirts.

(back in the day)

I remember wearing it with this pair of

old-worn-out jeans

and feeling so sexy.

A t-shirt&jeans made me feel unstopable.

Nowaday, I have to wear big sweaters

leggings&tights

bodysuites&undershirts

to ensure I'm hiding my fat body.

Last Thursday, though, I went t-shirt&jeans

and felt surprisingly good.

Sure, I'm still a solid 10lbs heavier

than I was in the above pictures

but I'm getting back to where I was

and getting back to feeling good.

Slowly but surely.

Day 352

Breakfast:
Yogurt - 150cals
Lunch:
Salad w/ Hardboiled Egg - 400cals
Dinner:
Pizza - 300cals

Exercise:
Cycling - 600cals

NET: 250

TV Thin

TV is such a wonderful source for Thinspo.

Well - sictoms are...

...reality TV is full of fatties.

Like TLC - goodness, so many chunkers.

First there's Brothers and Sisters

Kitty (Calista Flockhart) looking tiny as ever

and then there's Hart of Dixie

a show full of skinny characters including

Zoe (Rachel Bilson) and Tansy (Mircea Monroe).

I think it's nice to see those bony celebs on TV.

When I was in California

I went to a taping of the Kris Jenner Show

(which, laughably, is already cancelled)

and the episode featured Denise Richards.

She was rediculously thin...

even thinner than she looks in pictures&TV

so it proves the camera really does add pounds!