Heartache Diet

Well, the heartache is doing exactly what I thought it would

and I've completely lost my appetite.

When I do choke some food down, I get throw it up almost immediately,

cause I feel constantly sick to my stomach.

I made a huge batch of detox tea

(Habanero Pepper, Ginger, Lemon, & Green Tea boiled & strained)

and I've been drinking that whenever I feel like I need to "eat" something.

Today, I've felt less sad - meaning I ate a 16oz of Cold Quinoa Salad

(Cooked Quinoa, Cucumber, Tomato, Chickpeas, & Kalamenta Olives)

and two 90calorie packages of dried fruit.

In the past week, I have run every day - at least 2 miles.

Tuesday evening I even walked 10 miles after ran the first 2.

One day the only thing I ate was a spinach smoothie & half an apple.

Another day I only had a cucumber and 2 hard boiled eggs.

I don't have a scale, so I don't know what I weigh, but I'm feeling tiny.

6.29.16

Wednesday Night Body Check

6.28.16

Tuesday Night Body Check

(Post 12 Mile Walk/Run)

Broken Weightloss

My heart has been broken.

For the millionth time by the same person in less than a year.

He treats me like garbage- over&over -then sleeps with me.

I fall for his bullshit every time,

believing he's just having commitment issues,

but now I've learned that he just doesn't care about me.

He cares about all the things I do for him,

but he doesn't care about the actual me at all.

And in letting his abuse me, I've stopped caring about myself.

So it's time to buckle down on running & dieting.

I organized my vitamins,

did a bunch of meal prep,

and registered for a half marathon,

which I've created a training schedule for.

Since we live together- he'll have to see me

and every time he does, he'll regret losing me more&more.

Guilt Thin

A new show premiered on Freeform.

Guilt.

Tuesday nights - following Pretty Little Liars.

Not only is it set in London with beautiful scenery,

the main character is a bone.

Daisy Head is stick-skinny and incredibly thinspirational.

Just in time and just what I need.

InstaMuscles

This is my old roommate.

For some reason, we had a dramatic move-out

and we don't talk anymore.

But I scrolled through her Instagram

and was very impressed by this photo.

Back muscles are key.

Yes, I want to be thin&bony,

but muscle definition is very impressive.

My Forever Goal

I started watching Ally McBeal again

(middle of season 2)

and I still just can't get over how small she is!

Calista Flockhart is my ultimate body goal

and her character is perfect.

I love love love this show so very much.

And even though I can't stand Georgia,

I envy her for getting to kiss Ally in s2e10.

Lucy Thin

Lucy Hale has and always will be my favorite littleLiar.

She's so beautiful&adorable.

And, lately, she's been looking tinier&tinier.

My brother - an avid PLL fan -

pointed at that she's surpassed her awkward youth

and turned into a beautiful&thin actress.

Not only am I in love with her little body, but I dig her hair.

Author's Health

I know it has nothing to do with her writing,

but it makes me sad that Cassandra Clare is so big.

It's so unhealthy&dangerous.

I love love love her books and (in all seriousness) I worry for her.

body check

Vacation Eats

On a recent trip home I had a good mix of delicious food&treats.

Breakfast every morning - courtesy of dad - was TwoFriedEggs&WheatMuffin.

Lunch was often BrownRice&Veggies.

Dinner - even when eaten out - was VeganBurgers&Salads.

The dessert I indulged in with my girlfriends during The Bachelor viewing

was "smore lesagna" with layers of GramCracker&MarshmellowTopping.

It was all about portion control & intelligent selections.

I didn't feel a bit of guilt.

Christmas Cute

I spent Christmas Eve in Argentina.

I didn't bring the cutest of outfits,

but I felt cute anyway.

My manfriend thinks I should wear tighter clothes

"you have an amazing body. why don't you show it off?"

he says.

But I like looser clothes.

I feel smaller when items are hanging off me.

The tight pants still proved that I'm not as big as my oversized top.

Sweet Treat

This "ice cream" is amazing.

Yes, it has a bit of sugar in it,

but it has significant fiber also

and a small amount of protien.

I limit myself to the 1/2 cup serving size

(which I'll admit is very difficult)

but even that 1/2 cup is an awesome treat.

Dairy Free - Organic - Cocunut Milk

...doesn't get much better...

Frozen Meals

I'm finally getting good at packing food for flying.

I made a huge batch of brown rice

(made with chicken broth instead of water)

and mixed it with veggies&beans.

I put the meals in tin foil inside a tupperwear dish

and froze them.

So they work as ice packs in my lunchbox

and they're healthy.

And when I have packed food,

I feel guilty thinking about buying or munching on airplane food.

So far, I've felt much better&healthier this month.

Squat Thighs

I've been attempting 100 squats a day

...even if it's the only exercise I complete.

My thighs may be gigantic, but at least they're firm.

Too Funny

😂😂

Cute, Tiny People

No card has ever been truer.

Everything

is Cuter

when it's Tiny.

People.

Hotel Fit

Feelin' fit in the hotel gym.

InstaThin

Looking to Instagram for Thinspiration.

Cuoco Looks

Kaley Cuoco is killin' it this awards season.

Thin Cast

The Mortal Instruments - City of Bones (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1538403/) was an incredibly unsuccessful movie, which is sad because there were 5 more books in the series which could have made for an epic big screen hit machine. But, just because the movie failed, doesn't mean the story is going untold, because the books are now being produced as a TV series on the formally ABC Family station now known as Free Form: Shadowhunters: The Mortal Instruments (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt4145054/.) In honor of the release, I re-watched the movie. The only real upside to me is all the thinspo. Each character - even her mom - is bony&beautiful. I'm hoping the TV series is just the same. It premiers tonight - don't forget to tune in!

The Movie Cast:

Monday Vibes

Wallpaper Thinspo

My March phone background...

a thin photo of myself

and a lyric I love.

People's Choice Thin

Vanessa Hudgens

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm1227814/

Julianne Hough

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2584600/

Carly Rae Jepson

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm4946551/

Lucy Hale

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm1423955/

Abigail Spencer

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0817844/

Hot Joey

...except the tan & hair color are odd.

Mel's Trying

Another Melissa&Joey charater

who's fluctuating

and obviously trying.

Taylor Thins

I believe this show is cancelled

but my girlfriend and I used to watch Melissa&Joey

and it was wild to see this actress shrink.

Resolutions

1. ZERO Fast Food
2. Better Posture
3. Less Complaining