Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Relating to PostSecret

I know I should know better
and I definitely do know better
but I chose to desire an eating disorder.
I may not succeed always - but I want my ED.
I've been a vegetarian since I was a toddler.
Throughout the past year, I ate a lot of meat with the boy, though.
I will not allow myself to get off track anymore.
Being a vegetarian is one of the best ways to avoid eating.
 My body-image issues have existed since I can remember.
My mom was always pointing out people's weight&size
and she was constantly trying new diets.
Often she was convincing me to try them with her.
We had some friends in town this weekend.
Shockingly, our guy friend is the one who binge&purged.
The knowledge that he'd done this shook me
and actually made me never want to b&p again.
I've been a runner my whole life
and I definitely embraced EDs during my highschool running days.
Somehow the less I ate, the better I was.
I'm trying to get back to my roots with this half marathon training.

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