PostSecret Facts

Pineapple Goodness

I'm obsessed with dried pineapple...

I should probably pick the kind that's dried without sugar,

but the sweet deliciousness is so wonderful!

I need to stop.

Blown Up Balloon

This friend from college popped up on my newsfeed the other day

and I couldn't help noticing that she's blown up like a balloon!

It's so sad!

It's not like she was ever super tiny,

but she's definitely getting bigger&bigger.

I hope when people see me on facebook

they only think I still look small...

Alison Thickens

Sadly, one of the Pretty Little Liars

is not thin or getting any thinner...

the one who is supposed to be beautiful&popular

Alison, played by Sasha Pieterse,

continues to get thicker&zittier

with each passing episode.

I thought for sure she was pregnant,

but she's only 19 and I highly doubt that's the case.

I think her "softness" is genetic

and she's too young to have gained a handle on her body yet.

But, I'd like to know: where are all the trainers&chefs

she could hire with all the money she's making???



Unnecessary Problem

I'm in a girlfriend's wedding this fall and at lunch this past weekend

she informed me that both her shower&wedding dresses don't fit anymore!

She's gained 25lbs since purchasing them and needs to drop it before fittings in August.

Oy.

Sadly, she's one friend I really don't believe will succeed.

She's the only person I know who ran out and tried taco bell breakfast.

And she posted about how much she wanted to try a mac-n-cheese topped hotdog!

Disgusting.

I hope for her sake she can get it together,

but some people just have horrible eating habits and even the need is dire

- like fitting into a wedding dress -

the success is just impossible based on mindset.

Step 1 to fitting into a wedding dress: stop eating shit



Magazine Thin

I want people to say:

"She's gone too far."

and discribe me as "too skinny."

Instead, I seem to have been too thin

but now I'm on the Mary-Kate bloat plan.

Shit.

GoingOut Outfit

This weekend I showcased my

sweater-tights-boots look

for a night out at the bar with some friends.

I felt pretty good.

Also this weekend was a friend's wedding.

I felt like a fatso all week

but I tried to dehydrate enough

to make myself look good.

I had big plans to get ready...

but I left work late and ran behind

meaning my "getting ready" was quick

and the only redeeming qualities were:

good hair & super high heels.

Then I got wasted and passed out on the table.

Starting NOW:

No Drinking till 2014.

Hopefully I'll lose some weight.

No Fucking Way.

I have fat thighs.

I have no sex.

I have to find mia.

In my case, though, it's Pizza.

And my thighs never get smaller.

I seriously have to get my shit together.

My man won't fuck me at all.

I'm always too fat to be fuckable.

I need sex - I need the body for sex.

I loved Mia for years&years.

I tend to decide I cannot keep it up.

I must fall back into Mia & become tiny.

Two Years Later

...:Two Years Later:...

I was so gigantically fat in 2011...
I don't know how I snagged my boyfriend then.
Easily 140lbs ...how disgusting I was.
When I think about drunkely fucking him
getting ready for dates
thinking that I was better than him...
I was gross&huge
and lucky that he liked me anyway.
Now, though, I'm much better than I was.
Now, though, he should feel lucky to have me.
Now, though, he should fuck me more often.
I will continue to shrink.
I will always be good enough for him
(maybe even better than him)
and he'll always know he wants me.

TODAY's WEIGH-IN: 125lbs

Apps&Hollywood

I used to be so good at using the My Fitness Pal app

but for quite a while it's been forgotten.
I should get back to using it...
it definitely keeps me on track nicely
and now that I've got my head in the right place
(finally)
I'll be motivated to utilize it.
It's interesting to keep up with friends' updates.
One girlfriend is always burning so many calories
and I wish I could convince myself to do the same!

On a different note - I found a good article...
Hollywood Dirty Diet Secrets:
http://www.nydailynews.com
/life-style/hollywood-dirty-diet-secrets-article-1.286090
I like the peanuts only & hard-boiled egg only.
I could definitely do that.
I love hard-boiled eggs so much.
I think dirty diet secrets are nice to know...
it's not like anyone believes those tiny bitches
are "tiny by nature"
so knowing their extreme measures
reassures me that my efforts are not in vein.
I can eat hard-boiled eggs only
and be just as small as all the celebs.

Old Habits, New Look

I haven't purged in a long time.

Sure, I've done a lot of binging

but I haven't purged the binges.

Today, though, I couldn't stop myself.

After a weekend of stretching my stomach

and forgetting my adderal at home

I was in a munchie mood all day.

I ate my healthy salad

then proceeded to get chips&guac and froyo.

As I walked up the stairs I realized:

I have to throw this up.

So I did.

And boy am I out of practice.

I spewed it past the toilet and out my nose.

Disgusting.

Not only did I have to clean up

but my nose is congested and eyes all puffy.

Maybe it will teach me not to binge at all.

Bursted Blood Vessels

I also haven't change the look of my blog

...not once in almost two years.

Unfortunately, my photo editor quit working

so I can't match that bright pink filter anymore.

Now, though, my blog matches my personality

...I was never really very girly or bright.

And now I can start posting personal photos again

since I've been unable without an editor.

New Template Cover

Workout Fails

 I save all these pictures to my computer

then I never actually use them.

What a lazy person I've become.

"Walk w/ Stairs"

is my exercise every day.

And that's only because I encounter stairs

in my office & my parking structure.

I've been failing.

I need to stop.

I need to take these pictures to heart.

I need to work out.

I will not have a Fat Winter.
...this weekend I did full-body-weights
with the boyfriend...
and I weighed in at 126.5lbs.
Gotta keep up!

Wasted Weekends

...this is how I've acted lately.

Reverting back to my wasted college days.

Fucking&Partying my way through life.

Spiraling&Misbehaving without a care.

I got hammered at friends' weddings...
two weekends in a row

face-planted on the sidewalk

giving myself a goose egg & scraped knees.

At least when I acted this way in the past:

I was tiny.

Now I'm just a disgusting mess...

and embarrassing disaster.

If I'm going to be out of control

I better be small enough to carry to safety.

ProteinChoices

The boyfriend&I went out for lunch Saturday.

We picked the restaurant intending on ordering

Monte Cristos

but as soon as we looked at the menu

we changed our minds and opted for burgers.

No, it wasn't the healthiest

but it was mostly protein&toppings

instead of FattyMeats&FrenchToast&Sauce...

I guess we picked the lesser of two evils.

This weeks' diet is mostly deli meat.

The boyfriend&I bought a bunch for tailgating

and ended up with a ton left over.

Since we don't want to spend more on groceries

it looks like we'll be living off

deli meat

hardboiled eggs

chili

hummus & pita

diet coke

coffee

till the weekend of festivities, food, & booze.

I Am Gross.

After a couple weeks of terrible eating

I went to the doctor last Monday.

132lbs

Fuck me.

So gross.

How did I pour all this weight onto my body?

I must remember:

I have another doctor's appointment October 4th.

Let's see how much I can lose by then.

Back on track.

That's all there is to it.

RIP BikiniTop

This bikini top made my saggy boobs

look super good

(in my opinion)

...unfortunately, I took it off

to skinny-dip on vacation

and left it by the pool

in a rush to escape security.

Should have just claimed it from the lost&found

...but I'll just let it be a loss.

UglyMayo

This silly Ugly Betty Mayo Scene cracked me up.
I just started Season 3...
it's not the most well-written show,
but it's pretty funny.
The transformation of America Ferrera
into "Ugly Betty" is pretty hilarious.
Vanessa Williams -aka Wilhemina Slater-
always looks very thin&sexy also.
And, I don't care how much of a trainwreck she is:
I fucking love Lindsay Lohan.
Her little fast-food ensemble in the season premier
looked good dispite the trashiness
purely because she's tiny&adorable.

The Boyfriend

Not that I can really make excuses

...my naughty eating habits should be controlled by me...

but I can definitely put some blame

on my treat-loving boyfriend.

And - since vacation - all he's done is get

fatter&fatter.

Today - at the gym - his gut was rolling-over

his pants while he did squats.

Come on, dude.

I stress about my body 24/7

then you lose your breath

and flop around while you fuck me?

Ugh.

He's lucky I love him.

Thank god he's in his best friends wedding

in October so he has a goal to lose for.

(since I'm obviously not enough.)

I laid down the law for our strict diet&exercise.

We will look good by that weekend.

Lookin' Back

Feeling like a fatso on the beach.

Not a fun feeling.

Here's a snap from vacation...

it's odd

because I felt so skinny

on the beach that day,

but looking back at that picture

I don't look so thin.

I guess that just means

I have more work to do.

No matter how confident I feel

I can always better myself.

(I lost a follower... Sad All Day.)

Vacation Motivation (again)

I have NOT been a good girl lately.

I haven't been awful

but I've definitely been naughty.

I went on a camping trip

with some girlfriends last weekend

and brought some MaryJane with me.

I wanted to enjoy a tent on the beach

with a little mindlessness.

Unfortunately my girlfriends are munchers,

so I smoked&binged.

Irritating that I can't behave.

I have to start, though...

...and I can't just keep telling myself that.

I need to actually do it.

In exactly one month I'll be headed to LA

(for a week-long work conference)

and I want to look amazing.

This is real.

Under 120lbs by June 24th.
...I was gunna make eggless cookie dough
to snack on tonight
But I didn't have brown sugar,
so I'll take it as a sign to STOP.