Taylor's Vacation

This vacation was a while ago,

but I still just love how thin&adorable T.Swift is.

I love her classy bathing suites and her fun personality.

She just seems so genuine&happy

and she doesn't have to slut-it-up to be attractive.

 

http://www.glamour.com/fashion/blogs/dressed/2015/01/taylor-swift-vacation-pictures?mbid=social_fb_fanpage

Uniform Sexy

I used to work in Disney World.

This was my costume.

Not super flattering, but I liked the high-wasted pants.

For some reason, I always felt sexy in my costume.

Maybe it's just because I was happy every day

and when you're happy, you feel good about yourself.

Soon, I'll be wearing a flight attendant uniform daily

and I'm sure I'll feel sexy in that, too.

Epcot Uniform

 

Clothing Purge

I posted about minimizing my life recently

and I definitely took that to heart this past weekend.

I purged my house of clothing.

(which was everywhere...)

I whittled my wardrobe down to only 33 tops

and fit my pants&skirts&shorts all into one trunk.

After filling 4 garbage bags of donations,

I ended up with one small coat closet full of sweatshirts&dresses&tanks.

I certainly could pick "my life" into a car

...not just a carry-on suitcase like Shai, but let's be realistic here.

Next Two Weeks

My half marathon is in two weeks

then I'm off on a three week vacation.

Goals to perfect myself for these events:

Eat Healthy, Drink Water, Sleep Well, Work Out.

I must cleanse myself into pure skin and thin body.

Relating to PostSecret

I know I should know better

and I definitely do know better

but I chose to desire an eating disorder.

I may not succeed always - but I want my ED.

I've been a vegetarian since I was a toddler.

Throughout the past year, I ate a lot of meat with the boy, though.

I will not allow myself to get off track anymore.

Being a vegetarian is one of the best ways to avoid eating.

 My body-image issues have existed since I can remember.

My mom was always pointing out people's weight&size

and she was constantly trying new diets.

Often she was convincing me to try them with her.

We had some friends in town this weekend.

Shockingly, our guy friend is the one who binge&purged.

The knowledge that he'd done this shook me

and actually made me never want to b&p again.

I've been a runner my whole life

and I definitely embraced EDs during my highschool running days.

Somehow the less I ate, the better I was.

I'm trying to get back to my roots with this half marathon training.

Inspire Me

Walk & Burn

This past weekend I went to Chicago

for a day of shopping with my mom.

She has this thing called a FitBit

that hooks to your body and calculates your exercise.

According to her

we walked 18,038 seps totalling 7.42 miles

and burned 2,264 calories.

Pretty impressive for shopping

and considering we only ate one meal the whole day

our NET was exactly what I like to see.

Too bad I can't walk that much every day.

Back to daily cycling till Christmas instead.

A Beautiful Page

I found this a while ago...

...and forgot about it.

It honestly fits me perfectly.

I swear someone wrote it for me.

Oddly, it reminds me of something

someone's written to me before...

she was unstable&unhealthy&obsessed

but she always had my happiness in her heart.

I wish the same for her

though she'll never hear it from me.

RIP BikiniTop

This bikini top made my saggy boobs

look super good

(in my opinion)

...unfortunately, I took it off

to skinny-dip on vacation

and left it by the pool

in a rush to escape security.

Should have just claimed it from the lost&found

...but I'll just let it be a loss.

Vacay (finally)

Here are a few snapshots from my vacation

...way back in May.

Poolside Afternoon

I loved being able to lay outside in California.

Though I was pretty busy with conference stuff

I tried to go out on every break

to work on my tan and enjoy the weather.

Being outside in my bikini

inspires me to make sure I stay thin.

I wish it would have been warmer

...I was surprised,

but maybe that's cause

I'm so used to the humidity of Florida.

CalifornicationThinspo

Obviously,

I saw lots of beautiful people in California...

and I'll do some posts about it

sometime soon - hopefully.

But this lady at my hotel pool

blew my mind.

She was probably in her 40's

and just tiny-tiny-tiny.

Her little back was so bony

and her legs&arms were like sticks.

She kept getting up&down

and looked like she'd break every time.

Just before I took these pictures

she was going to order food at the bar.

Yeah right.

Like she eats...

4th of July

"I'll be out of town

for the rest of the week

...celebrating the 4th of July with my family.

Goal: Keep my food journal & exercise.

23days till L.A.

10lbs to lose."

...that's what I said on July 3rd.
Here's what I actually did...
Weight on July 3rd: 128lbs
Current Weight: 126lbs

I guess that wasn't too awful.
Somehow, I've lost weight
on both my major vacations this summer.
Let's see how I do in California.
Lower&lower, please.

OldLadyOutfit

High-wasted pants and a button-down.

Paired with my favorite grandma sweater&belt

and I had a fun "going-out" outfit

for an evening with my girls.

Lookin' Back

Feeling like a fatso on the beach.

Not a fun feeling.

Here's a snap from vacation...

it's odd

because I felt so skinny

on the beach that day,

but looking back at that picture

I don't look so thin.

I guess that just means

I have more work to do.

No matter how confident I feel

I can always better myself.

(I lost a follower... Sad All Day.)

Latin Beauty

I've always loved Latino culture

-South America was my area of focus in College-

and I can honestly wish I could be confident

in a curvy body

like the women in these wonderwall.latino photos.

I'm not, though.

I prefer a bony body

...even though I still don't have it back.

It is great to see beautiful women

embracing themselves

even if their bodies aren't what I'd like.

http://wonderwall.latino.msn.com/tv/
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Vacation Motivation (again)

I have NOT been a good girl lately.

I haven't been awful

but I've definitely been naughty.

I went on a camping trip

with some girlfriends last weekend

and brought some MaryJane with me.

I wanted to enjoy a tent on the beach

with a little mindlessness.

Unfortunately my girlfriends are munchers,

so I smoked&binged.

Irritating that I can't behave.

I have to start, though...

...and I can't just keep telling myself that.

I need to actually do it.

In exactly one month I'll be headed to LA

(for a week-long work conference)

and I want to look amazing.

This is real.

Under 120lbs by June 24th.
...I was gunna make eggless cookie dough
to snack on tonight
But I didn't have brown sugar,
so I'll take it as a sign to STOP.

VacationThin

I came back from vacation...

4lbs lighter than when I left.

Impressive, I think.

(Though now I'm PMSing&craving all things naughty.)

I may not have done a ton of exercising,

but I also didn't do a ton of munching,

so that was good.

And I had a great amount of addy&lax

to keep me on track

when my fellow-vacationers were fattening up.

Vacation Time

Off to spend a week in the sunshine.

Bikinis&Booze&Boyfriend

Be back in a week.

I will keep my Food Diary
throughout the entire vacation.
Just because I'm out of the country,
doesn't mean I can let myself get fat.
Bikinis&HealthyEats
I believe, I believe, I believe in myself
and my strength to maintain
the hard work&effort I've put forth.

Travel Desires

This post has nothing to do with

weight, eating habits, health, or body image

- wild, I know -

but I came across this blog

and the pictures took my breath away.

I guess,

when it comes down to it,

I'd like my blog to have more to do with

happiness.

My happiness directly correlates with

how I look&feel

but I also think my life

needs to take priority over my obsession

with weight&image.

So, here's a little peak into my soul:

I absolutely love architecture

[especially old buildings]

and finding beauty in unexpected places.

I love recycling&re-purposing.

I love traveling&exploring.

And I hope someday I can see the world

and enjoy every moment of it.

Sometimes I fear I'm simply living

day-by-day

nothing special

and I know I need to live.

http://idealistrevolution.blogspot.
in/2013/04/30-abandoned-places-that-look-truly.html