My butt, please?

KEEP GOING

I'm the maid-of-honor in my best friend's wedding

and she's started getting discouraged with her bridal diet.

In the first 2 weeks, she dropped 7lbs

(she doesn't have much to lose in the first place)

and now she's at a stand-still.

Her frustration reminded me of this saying:



Timehop Reminder

This photo came up on my Timehop

and I was so shocked by how small I used to be...

I mean, sure, I was younger

...but I wasn't a child...

so the childish frame&legs&arms just threw me off.

I don't even remember looking that way.

I was a much better version of myself 6 years ago.

I really need to get my shit together.

Cafeteria Food

I will eat cafeteria food for the next 46 days.

I think the limited options will actually be helpful.

One summer in college, I worked on my university's campus

and the only thing I ate for months was cafeteria food.

In attempting to avoid the naughty options,

I was left with little else to eat than salad&eggs.

Lets hope for a repeat.

So far I've had:

Salads

Vegan Chili

Beans & Rice

Eggs

Hummus Wraps

...and I've been running.

Keepin' it up.

Gallon of Water

A coworker showed me this article about drinking a gallon of water a day

and said she was going to try it.

Drinking water is excellent and I drink at least a gallon a day at the office,

but I definitely slack on the weekends.

I should probably be more consistent.

Natural Shailene

I might very well be obsessed with Shailene Woodley.

Rarely do I find an actress I truly want to emulate

but she intrigues&amazes me.

I've watched so many interviews

and I just think she's so perfect.

I love the way she talks and the way she thinks.

Obviously it's not like a Belieber situation

(gross)

I mean, I'm a 20something semi-successful girl,

but I feel like she's a great person to look up to

...to aspire to be like.

Maybe it's because she's my age and I find myself thinking:

how can she be so in touch with her thoughts&opinions

when I still have no idea what I want&need for my life.

I guess I'll just continue to read articles

like her interview in Natural Health

and try to figure out why her lifestyle connects with me so well.

I've always been a naturalist...

a lifelong vegetarian and major recycler...

I guess I have some soul-searching&internal-digging to do.

http://www.divergentlife.com/2014/04/shailene-woodley-in-natural-health.html



Thin Sisters

Glancing through facebook,

I noticed some of my sisters looking exceptionally thin,

so I had to showcase their perfection

and note my own desires&goals.

Obviously, I'll have to get my butt into gear

and be a little more active

if I aspire to look like the bottom picture.

Rachel Goal

I ran across this red carpet photo of the Friends girls.

Obviously, I had to share the thin.

Jennifer Aniston's body is my new goal.

Angel Thin

The 2014 Victoria's Secret Fashion Show aired this week

(obvs, you probably all knew that)

and, of course, I watched&loved it.

I'll admit that I didn't like it as much as years' past

but it was still thinspirational&beautiful.

Those models ...my goodness... have the tiniest&longest legs.

I can't even aspire to look like them

cause my body just isn't made that way.

My favorite Angel is Candice and I loved her fairy look.

And my favorite performer was Taylor Swift

who looked like she should have been one of the Angels herself.

A good watch to make me behave - but not the best show ever.

I think I enjoyed all the workout posts they did even more...

a lot of the Angels posted what they did to prepare

and VS put it on their blog so everyone can "Train Like an Angel."

Maybe I'll try some of the workouts.

Holiday Exercise

I kicked off the Thanksgiving holiday with lots of exercise.

After a few too many drinks at the bar...

the boyfriend got a ride with his friends

and left me 3.5miles from home

so I walked&ran the whole way alone at 2am.

Though I was fuming from the neglect

I wasn't mad about the exercise

and I felt nice&thin in the morning.

I spent the rest of the weekend doing a lot of walking

while visiting family&friends

so I think I actually did really well!

...If I had a scale, I'd weigh myself.

Maybe after the new year.

Maid Legs

I'm the maid-of-honor in my best friend's wedding next year.

This is her cousin - the bridesmaid who will stand next to me.

Fuck me.

She's such a stick.

I'm going to look like a blob.

I must behave myself.

I will say, though, that my dress size is smaller than hers.

I measured an inch smaller in the waist

(probably because she's a straight-edged stick)

but my legs are obviously fat compared to hers

and these dresses are short, so the difference will show.

Time for some intense leg slimming&toning.

Mixify Movement

Obviously I agree with the Mixify cause

- balance what you eat&drink&do -

but I think its kind of a wild way of putting it.

The youth of America who slam fastfood every day

will watch the commercials and think:

as long as I go for a walk, I can eat another donut!

I guess it has the right intentions

and hopefully healthy parents will teach their kids properly

but I can see it easily going in the wrong direction.

TriggerTuesday

Triggers are wild.

Last night I had martinis with my coworker

and she was telling me about how skinny her daughter is.

I asked if this was something was concerned about

and she told me about her daughter's high school ED.

She's starting her senior year in college

and is dating a man her sisters don't approve of

and has apparently lost a significant amount of weight.

I've been following proana instagram profiles

and I was recently fitted for 2 bridesmaid dresses

but hearing about my coworkers daughter

and her probable rekindling with her ED

motivated me to get my shit together again.

Starting now: I will be thin.

her daughter at high school homecoming



Black&Whites

i often think this about our lack of sex

i'd rather have all my clothes hang off my bones

i've gotten on the scale once - it sucked

Goal Celebration

This is exactly how it is, though.

And I don't mind.

@BeFitMotivation

A few of my recent favorites from Twitter's Fitness Motivation.

Goal Stomach - yes, please

i can Definitely relate

i wish the bf&i were like this

10/2 i love

i wanna look like this in bed

Next Two Weeks

My half marathon is in two weeks

then I'm off on a three week vacation.

Goals to perfect myself for these events:

Eat Healthy, Drink Water, Sleep Well, Work Out.

I must cleanse myself into pure skin and thin body.

Relating to PostSecret

I know I should know better

and I definitely do know better

but I chose to desire an eating disorder.

I may not succeed always - but I want my ED.

I've been a vegetarian since I was a toddler.

Throughout the past year, I ate a lot of meat with the boy, though.

I will not allow myself to get off track anymore.

Being a vegetarian is one of the best ways to avoid eating.

 My body-image issues have existed since I can remember.

My mom was always pointing out people's weight&size

and she was constantly trying new diets.

Often she was convincing me to try them with her.

We had some friends in town this weekend.

Shockingly, our guy friend is the one who binge&purged.

The knowledge that he'd done this shook me

and actually made me never want to b&p again.

I've been a runner my whole life

and I definitely embraced EDs during my highschool running days.

Somehow the less I ate, the better I was.

I'm trying to get back to my roots with this half marathon training.

Ugh, Breakouts.

I've actually been using Proactiv since March.

I feel like my face got worse for a while there

but it's finally getting better.

Not tanning since fall has definitely

brought out the nature of my skin.

(which isn't necessarily a good thing.)

I've always known that clean eating was key.

I can totally tell when I eat garbage

and my face blows up.

It's like my pours fill with fat&grease&sugar

from the inside

and I look like the shit I shove in my mouth.

So hopefully the combination

of a good cleansing&eating system

will help and I'll finally feel pretty daily.

TenantRant

Speaking of that tenant I had, I think I should go on a little rant about her. She was terrible. She'd order huge meals then not eat any and give it all to her boyfriend. She'd pretend like she loved junkfood&snacks to "fit in with the guys," but she'd never actually eat anything in front of anyone. (though there were quite a few times I saw her sneaking donuts&cookies from the office lunchroom.) She was always on a cleanse or trying some type of new laxative tea, but then she'd say, "I've never done this before - my mom bought it for me." (yeah, sure. just OWN YOUR SHIT, please!) She never exercised and when she did she wore tons of layers to "sweat more weight off." (cause that water weight didn't come right back as soon as you drank anything.) She was basically the definition of bad-body-habits and everything I hate in a girl who pretends not to diet or care but clearly does and has no idea what she's doing. Yet, most importantly, she was straight up mean. I got her a job and she treated me like garbage ...expecting me to drive her to work without gas money or enough respect to get in my car on time in the mornings. Once she started skipping all the time to hang out with her boyfriend or play up an illness, they fired her and she blamed me. She parked in my spot in my driveway. She ran a space heater day&night to sky-rocket my electricity bill without increasing her monthly rent payment. She barely paid her monthly rent payments in full or on time. She took too many showers too often for too long and insisted on doing a million tiny loads of laundry. She was basically the devil in a bitchy, soft-bodied twenty-something-year-old with lofty goals for thin but not enough ambition for follow-through. Now though, in my daily runs, I tell myself to look better than her. I keep her love-handles tattooed in my memory to motivate me to properly take care of myself, my body, and my fitness, so I'm not scrambling to flatten out for a bikini at a weekend pool party. She's one of those girls who was born with chicken legs and bony arms, but maintains her unnatural characteristics terribly and I will never look like her. I am toned&tiny and successful&confident through hardwork&dedication and I will never look like a marshmallow on toothpicks. And I will never act like the spawn of satin to someone who's opened their home to me. End rant.